Have you ever wanted something so much that you wish you could scream it on the top of the mountain so the world could hear you but then when you think about it you don't want to embarrass yourself by telling people so you just stay quiet and don't tell anyone? And then you keep it inside your heart and your heart gets hungrier and hungrier and it wants more and more. But then you realize you can't do anything about it?
Have you ever wished for something so much that you constantly question why you don't have it already and why other people have it and you don't? And then you write about it in your journal all of the time and wish and wish that it comes true, but it never does? And you wish even more and it still doesn't come true and then you're sad and you ask why? But then you realize you can't do anything about it?
Have you ever thought about something so much that it's weird when you aren't thinking about it because it seems so normal to be thinking about life or dreams or happiness or the future all of the time? And then your brain gets so jumbled up when you think about life or dreams or happiness or the future that you can't think of anything else but that's okay because sometimes thinking about life or dreams or happiness or the future lets you escape from the present? But then you realize you can't do anything about it?
Have you ever prayed for something so much that when it isn't answered you wonder why or you wonder if God maybe forgot about you for a second, but then you remember that everything is supposed to happen for a reason even though sometimes that seems hard to believe? And then you pray some more because you really want God to notice you this time and answer your prayers? But then you realize you can't do anything about it?
Yeah, me too.
