Letting Go

I think too much about everything.

About my hair, my appearance, my grades, my future, my relationships, my health, my life; everything.

It just seems so normal to me to be worrying about something; stress is a usual occurrence inside my head. People always tell me that we have no control over what happens tomorrow, that we should just think in the now. But that doesn't make sense to me-- everything I do today has an effect on what happens tomorrow, what happens next week, and what happens next year.

So, naturally, I think too much about everything.

And because I think too much about everything, sometimes thoughts and desires that make so much sense in my head can get blown out of proportion very quickly.

That means I tend to fantasize. A lot.

I fantasize over college, over falling in love, over my wedding, over my future children, over my career. When you want something so badly, fantasizing over it just seems so natural, so routine.

But fantasizing over something too much can get out-of-hand fast. It makes so much sense in your head that you think it has become reality, if that makes sense. This is dangerous. Because dreams in our heads don't always translate into realities.

Everything is supposed to happen for a reason, really. So if we stop thinking so much about what we want in life, and instead, just live our lives, it might just turn out to be all right. Because maybe, once we let go of our fantasies and face realities, things might just fall into place when we least expect it. The universe likes to surprise us.